The Suicidal Employee
When it’s someone you know…
Most supervisors and employees hope they never find themselves in
The
position of wondering whether a colleague, subordinate or coworker
is at imminent risk for suicide. Disturbing at any time, completed
suicides are particularly disturbing to those who are on the
frontline and know first hand the traumatic impact of suicide on
everyone involved, including the friends and family who are left
behind. The effects are devastating, and no matter how hard someone
tries to understand death by suicide it never really “makes sense.”
But suicide isn’t about “making sense.” It’s about feelings and
those feelings are not likely to make sense to anyone other than the
person who is feeling them. As we know from research, suicide isn’t
so much about the desire for death as it is about the overwhelming
need to end perceived pain
Identifying The Risk
“This past year I responded to the suicide of a 22 year old male who
was intoxicated and committed suicide with a shotgun to his head. 12
years earlier I had responded to a call at his mother’s house when
she reported him being sexually molested by his biological
grandfather (her dad). Grandpa got a few years in the pen and was
out. Recently the 22 year old had been living with Grandpa. He had
never been the same since he and his sister were molested. The night
before he committed suicide he and his girlfriend had been smoking
marijuana and drinking heavily. He told his girlfriend what his
grandfather had done to him and told her he was depressed. She went
home about 2 am and tried to call him back at 4 am. His grandmother
found him at 7 am when she tried to wake him for work.
At the time I worked the suicide I didn’t put 2 and 2 together. I
knew I was at Grandpa’s house but didn’t recognize who the kid was
until the Medical Examiner was there. I thought, “I wish I could go
over there and ask Grandpa how he felt when he killed his grandson
at 12 years old.” That’s essentially what he did. It just took 10
years for him to finally die. But you can’t do that, you just clear
the call, do your paperwork and go on to the next thing.”
When we are safely cloaked in our “professional gear,” responding to
a crime scene or dispatching on 911, we know what is expected of us.
This is what we’ve been trained to do, and as one person said to me
recently, “Trauma is my life, whether it’s emotional or physical. I
admit that I’m a masochist and I’m at my happiest when I’m dealing
with other people’s problems. Maybe it’s my way of subconsciously
ignoring my own, but it works.”
Whether it’s the first time or the fifteenth time our predetermined
professional role serves to “separate” us from the reality of the
traumatic event. In the professional literature this separation is
called a functional detachment, otherwise known as denial. Although
we may not consciously realize we are detaching ourselves from our
feelings this compartmentalization enables most of us to function
effectively during a high stress incident.
“At the time of the incident I didn’t feel anything. My training
took over. I did what I was supposed to do.”
But what if the identified imminent risk isn’t “out there” with John
or Jane Q Public making suggestive life threatening statements? What
if the warning signs we’re reading are inside and much closer to
home?
When these same warning signs are demonstrated by people we know and
work with the decision to act can be far more challenging. We
question our perception of what we hear or see and wonder whether
intervention is necessary? What if we’re wrong? What then?
When It’s Someone You Know. For many of us working in emergency
public safety, with already more than enough memories, thoughts,
feelings and images left behind by completed suicides or traumatic
deaths we’ve witnessed or responded to, the thought of a colleague,
subordinate, friend or family member ending their lives in the same
manner is extremely disturbing.
Even though we may know that anyone is vulnerable to depression and
at-risk behavior, emotionally we struggle to accept this potential
in someone we know and care about. Inadvertently, our own feelings
and experiences concerning suicide interfere with our ability to
perceive the seriousness of the situation.
In The Eye of The Storm.
As an undergraduate student I worked part time as a research
assistant in the university psychology department. One evening I
received a phone call at home from a female graduate student who
worked there with me. She was distraught over what she described as
her failing grades. Although we’d never had a personal conversation
before or outside of the University, I was flattered that she would
call me, a younger student, to confide in. I was also understandably
concerned when she disclosed how depressed she was.
We talked for over an hour during which time she denied her
suicidality, (“I would never do something like that”); swore she had
not disclosed her feelings to anyone else other then me, (“No one
else would understand.”) and thanked me repeatedly for helping her,
(“I feel so much better. You’ve helped me more then anyone.”). Then
she pleaded with me to keep her secret, (“You can’t tell anyone! I
would be so embarrassed if anyone knew."). I agreed. Approximately
one month later this young student committed suicide.
As the students and faculty gathered on campus to share our grief we
soon learned a startling fact. Inadvertently we had all participated
in our young friend’s demise. Each one of us present, senior as well
as junior members of the department of psychology, students, Ph.D.s
and M.D.s, in addition to the staff of two suicide hotlines and a
variety of outpatient therapists, had all been contacted by this
young woman at one time or another and each of us had been given the
same information yet none of us knew about each other.
Each was told he or she was the only person she had confided in.
Each was sworn to secrecy. Each was thanked for being the “only one
to help her” and each, out of concern for her and not wishing to
jeopardize what they believed was her only outlet, (themselves)
agreed to keep her confidence.
She was a colleague. She was a graduate student in psychology. She
wasn’t failing. In fact, she was an honors student. Her feelings
made no sense to those whom she confided in and were obviously
irrational but because each of us prided ourselves on our ability to
understand human behavior, (“we were all in the field, after all,”)
and she “trusted” us with her confidence (“Only me.”) we explained
away her behavior. We denied the seriousness of her intent because
it was so hard for us to accept that someone who lived and worked
and studied in the very midst of a psychology department on a
prestigious university campus could actually be suicidal without
anyone picking up on it.
We all told ourselves versions of the same story: that if she truly
were at risk she would say so (she did) and that even if she didn’t
say anything, by some fluke of nature, then certainly one of the
many, many mental health professionals she was surrounded by
everyday would notice and intervene. But no one did. True, she
manipulated each of us by the information she shared but we
contributed to the problem by allowing our arrogance, complacency
and naiveté to get in the way and by not communicating with each
other when the “Red Flags” were so clearly there.
Our feelings
interfered with our perceptions of the situation.
The EPS Professional.
As a psychologist I’ve spent many hours talking with public safety
professionals who vehemently denied they would ever commit suicide
or consider suicide an option “because I’ve seen what can happen to
someone. I’d never do that to my family.” Yet, months later these
same individuals would make a suicide attempt after a crisis. “I
can’t believe he killed himself. He seemed to be in such a good
mood. He seemed happy.”
I’ve also spent equally as many if not more hours talking with
public safety professionals who are so “high maintenance” and labor
intensive in their needs that in a room of 20, he or she is the only
person in the room one can focus on. The classic case of “20% of the
people taking 80% of the resources.” While these individuals are
effective at alarming everyone in their presence with their
provocative behavior and hundreds of potential “Red Flags,” they
never actually seem to follow through with what they threaten or
imply. So, what do you believe and when is intervention
appropriate?
Organizational Recommendations
The following sections represent some basic suggestions for your
organization and for you professionally, as a supervisor, training
officer or colleague. We will also cover you, as the human being,
who may one day regrettably find yourself in positions you never
wished for and hoped you’d never to go to.
Although not every possibility is listed, the following
recommendations are those we feel any organization should consider
as a baseline minimum for their employees. Modifications can be made
according to the specific needs of the organization, based on size,
location, personnel available, etc.
Supervisors often protect those personnel experiencing depression
and deny the existence of any problems serious enough to warrant
intervention by an outside source. However, such acts ultimately are
a disservice to the affected personnel by denying them the help they
need.
· Personnel may resist seeking help. Many fear that if help is
sought, employment and economic security will be threatened. This
myth can be dispelled through department policy and the approach
utilized by responding supervisors.
· Supervisors must be provided with adequate training and resources
so that they themselves feel comfortable with approaching personnel
who are potentially suicidal.
· Education on depression and suicide should be implemented for all
department personnel. They should be informed that seeking help does
not mean the end of their career, but the start of improving a new
career. Asking for health signals strength and insight, not weakness
and denial, and that must form the foundation of any prevention
program.
· A suicide prevention program can only work if members of the
department feel free to take advantage of it. Administrators and
supervisors must play a nonpunitive role. They must be sensitive to
the possibility that any intervention provided may be experienced by
personnel as stressful and threatening. They must communicate to
personnel that seeking help will not result in job termination, all
information will be kept confidential, that other ways exist for
dealing with a situation, no matter how hopeless it seems at the
time and that someone is available to help them deal with their
problems.
Training, policy and procedure must be set and communicated
consistently across every level of department leadership by word and
practice every day.
Integrity of thought and action are vital. If what you say isn’t
what you do, either individually or organizationally, then others
will know this. Don’t assume that because you’re a “good player” no
one will notice. They will. They may not say anything but they will
notice that “what’s good for the goose isn’t what’s good for the
gander,” and one of the most important factors necessary for making
all this work will be missing: trust. Without it, all the policy and
procedures in the world will do nothing to stem the tides of
disharmony and poor morale. Your “word” and the word of your
organization are really all you have. Once you allow that to lapse
the road back is very hard to find.
When It's Someone You Know
Sometimes the red flags just keep on coming, and when it's someone
you know taking the next step can feel like the longest mile you've
ever traveled. While this is by no means an exhaustive list take
time to review its contents. Consider the message embedded within:
No one has a crystal ball, not even the professionals. Should
personal factors come into play, simply be mindful of them, and
repeat this key phrase to yourself:
"When in doubt, refer them out. Consult, consult, consult.”
You must be abundantly clear and extremely honest with yourself when
reviewing this list and looking within. The consequences of denial
can be deadly.
List of 16
1. Do you know this person well? A friend on the job? A close
working associate or colleague? A subordinate you've developed a
good working relationship with or who may have at one time been your
trainee or probationer?
2. Do you admire, respect or look up to this person? Do you see him
or her as your role model, mentor, or perhaps even the consummate
leader and professional? Was he or she instrumental in your
professional development, or you in theirs?
3. With this same individual in mind, whether you are peer-to-peer,
or subordinate to supervisor, does your professional relationship
include on duty or off duty socializing and the exchanges of
confidences?
4. Is this someone whom you ordinarily seek out after particularly
difficult calls, runs, or critical incidents?
5. Whether you have ever confided this information to another living
soul or not, if you are really honest with yourself at this moment
in time, have you ever felt significantly depressed or despondent to
the extent that suicide, or placing yourself in harms way in
whatever fashion, has been or is a viable option for you? (Consider
the feelings with this one, and not the words you may have said.)
Are you feeling this way now? If this is an experience from your
past, do you currently harbor feelings of shame, remorse or guilt
for that particular time in your life?
6. Despite the potential for adverse consequences, and maybe even
because of it, do you place yourself in high-risk situations? (For
example: respond to shots fired without wearing vest; high speed
pursuit without being belted in; extreme sports to the detriment of
other activities or self-care; multiple affairs while married or in
committed relationship; repeated abuse of substances; first on scene
without calling for backup.)
7. If you were the first on scene of a completed suicide,
suicide/homicide, did you see the body? Were you debriefed? Was
there follow-up?
8. Were the victim’s family, children, significant other, parents or
friends present, and if so were they extremely emotional? Did you
interact with them directly?
9. Have you ever been or were you routinely tasked with the
responsibility of providing death notification (s) on one or more
occasions? Of someone you knew to people you know or still know?
10. Has someone known to you in your division or command committed
suicide?
11. Has a parent, adult caretaker; significant other, child or close
family member ever experienced chronic bouts of acute depression,
and/or suicidal ideation? Was a suicidal attempt ever made? Did this
occur when you were a child or as an adult, and if the answer is
both, was it continuous or on more then one occasion? If a suicide
attempt was made did you provide intervention? If a completed
suicide occurred did you find the body? Was there support provided
to you in the aftermath? Do you still think about this event now?
12. As a child and then later as an adult, did you experience
feelings of shame, embarrassment, humiliation, frustration or anger
towards someone you were close to because of the circumstances
created by his or her depression? Did you ever tell him or her, or
anyone else, how you felt about the experience and your subsequent
feelings? Were you honest? Were you honest with yourself? If you've
never told anyone, why not?
13. Have you had one of more instances of providing first response
or first point of contact to a protracted critical incident, such as
a barricaded suspect suicidal, or barricaded suspect with hostages?
Bombing? Plane crash? Public display of violence with fatalities
(PDVF)? Were children involved?
14. Have you dispatched on one or more calls in which the caller
completed the suicide while talking to you?
15. Did a successful rescue attempt by you ultimately result in
negative consequences for one or more victims? (For example, the
victims were saved but later succumbed to their injuries in the
hospital. Their final days were painful for themselves and their
families. You were witness to their pain and grief.) Was there media
attention immediately following the rescue to the extent that your
actions were highlighted, or portrayed as heroic?
16. Do you have a strong personal faith or practice a spiritual
belief in which suicide is considered an act against God?
Note how many and which items you have endorsed on the List of 16
then refer to Table 1 for additional guidelines. Also note that
additional information pertaining to supervisors, partners, friends
and family members directly follows this section.
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If you've endorsed items 5, 6, 11, 12 or 13 with Plane Crash, Bombing
or PDVF with Children consider this an automatic Three to Four Red
Flags.
The average emergency public safety professional is likely to
endorse two or more Red Flags during the course of his or her
career.
Consequently, when faced with numerous Red Flags flying around
someone you know, and know well, you may not be able to see the
forest for the trees. At no fault to you, your perception may be
skewed, influenced or biased by your own thoughts, experiences and
feelings. This does not mean that you are incapable of acting
appropriately or providing a realistic assessment or following your
organizations pre-determined protocol for managing such situations.
However, getting to that next step may be the mitigating factor.
Given your acknowledgment of one or more of the above, then consider
this:
There may be times, circumstances and situations when you may not be
the best person for making the critical decision.
Your reaction or response to a despondent employee, professional
friend or colleague may be disproportionate to the actual needs of
the individual, or their safety and well being, and that of the
responding agency. Despite, and perhaps even because of, your own
years of experience with handling people and circumstances like this
as a public safety professional, you may not always see as clearly
when it comes to someone you know. Your heart may be in the right
place, but your mind may not. You may want to do the right thing,
but your ordinarily clear vision may be obscured by your own
feelings about suicide, and traumatic death as well as your feelings
about the person involved.
This in itself does not have to be an obstacle to providing an
appropriate response. However, maintaining a conscious awareness of
where you are on the continuum of feelings and how and when they may
influence your actions is vitally important.
Interviews with suicide survivors tell us the actual window of time
during which they are at greatest risk for attempting suicide is
extremely small. If appropriate intervention is provided quickly the
impulse to suicide fades and may not resume again. Consequently your
next step is an important one.
Best rule of thumb, when it comes to someone you know:
When in doubt, refer them out. Consult, consult, consult.
Don't be alone in making such an important decision. You may think
that you are maintaining confidentiality or protecting someone you
care about from unnecessary stress by not telling someone else, but
the consequences of not acting can be fatal. You will also live for
a very long time with the memory of your decision.
Consulting with someone else (a professional, a supervisor, a
trusted friend and colleague) is particularly important if you've
endorsed two or more on the list above, and the person in question
is actively presenting with symptoms and behavior that are of
serious concern to you. The closer you feel to that person, the
harder it may be to decide what to do, but if the Red Flags are
showing up on the horizon, trust your feelings. The Red Flags
wouldn't be there if something wasn't going on. Better to err on the
side of caution then to risk someone's life.
Anything you choose to do can be done carefully, and with kindness
and respect.
The intention of your actions should reflect the care that you feel
and the integrity of your beliefs. You are acting to preserve the
person, and the relationship, not just to follow standard operating
procedures. If you're genuine in your intent, most people you are
close to, even those in crisis and those you don't know, will feel
that and know it. They will try to meet you where you are. If you
are not genuine, they will feel that and know that, too. If you are
not the best person for the approach, and you may not be, (There's
no shame to this.) "When in doubt, refer them out. Consult, consult,
consult." No matter how responsible you may feel for your friend and
or colleague, you really are not the only person capable of helping.
Let someone else try.
“You talk about raising the Red Flags and you list 16 things that can
and should raise a Red Flag in an employee or coworker. Christ, I
answered yes to most of them and I feel I am a well-adjusted person
who just happens to deal with death on a regular basis.
Our agency regularly offers critical incident debriefings to any
employees who have experienced or handled a critical incident. In
homicide we have experienced awful human suffering almost daily but
we all successfully practice “functional detachment and denial.” We
are too busy to think about the tragedy of an incident and there is
always a new case that quickly replaces the current investigation. I
don’t know how we coped with what we do but we all seem to have
developed that “thick skin” to shield ourselves. I suppose the
reason is we don’t know most of our victims even though we can
relate to some of them.
I have been involved in the investigation of three employees who
have committed suicide. In one of the cases I personally spoke by
telephone to a deputy just minutes before he shot himself to death.
My conversation with him threw up numerous Red Flags and I called
for rescue and patrol deputies to respond to his residence
immediately. He killed himself in the time it took responding units
to arrive.
I believe that because of my experiences I do recognize the danger
signs when others will often rationalize. Your motto, “When in
doubt, refer them out. Consult, consult, consult,” is something we
stress in our agency although I know we have employees who wouldn’t
recognize a clue if it hit them in the face.”
If, after reading this chapter, you find you would like additional
more detailed explanation of the List of 16, please go the section
entitled, “Oh Say Can You See, The Red Flags Flying Over Me.”
Guidelines For Understanding Suicidal Behavior
Although there are many lists and formats that are available to help
you in this process, the following represents a list intended on
providing guidelines for understanding suicidal behavior and coping
with the aftermath. It is by no means all-inclusive and there may be
other methods or aspects that are not covered in this material. This
list can also serve as a stand-alone presentation or hand-out during
roll call.
If you find information that is more relevant to you, your
situation, or even your temperament and personality we encourage you
to use it. In fact, we also encourage you to share this material
with whomever you can wherever and whenever appropriate. There can
never be too much good resource information on hand.
What Motivates Someone To Consider Suicide As A Viable Option?
v A Cry for Help – feeling helpless and hopeless
v As a manipulation or means of control, feeling helpless, out of
control, trying to get a response from other people, attempting to
regain perceived power
v To end physical and/or emotional pain and suffering, overwhelming
feelings of sadness, depression, anxiety, despair
v Anger
v There appears no other alternative.
Indirect Methods or Signs of Suicidal Intent or Suicidal Ideation
¨ Excessive risk taking on the job – putting self in harm’s way (not
wear flak jacket, not calling for backup when needed, antagonizing
an already volatile situation unnecessarily, reckless driving)
¨ Excessive risk taking elsewhere
¨ High risk behaviors – not perceiving or acknowledging danger where
danger exists
¨ Drinking and drug abuse
¨ Non-compliance with prescribed treatment or medication
¨ Provoking confrontations with dangerous individuals
¨ Reckless driving and car accidents, falls and other “accidents”
Direct Methods
¨ Any lethal method
Possible Early Warning Signs
¨ Hopeless and helpless statements, “Things will never get better.”
¨ Suicidal statements: overt and implied, “Maybe I should kill
myself”, “My life is over”, “I’m on the edge”, or “I’m losing it”
¨ Depression and/or excessive crying
¨ Recent loss coupled with a decline in functioning – “I can’t go on
because of / or without _________”
¨ Statement of worthlessness, self-hate, and intense guilt, “I was
never any good at relationships anyway.”
¨ Angry statements such as, “If I can’t have him or her, then no one
can.”
¨ Statements that suggest over identifying with someone who
committed suicide, “I wish it were me;” “If someone like him could
do it then anyone can.”
¨ Getting affairs in order – giving away personal possessions
¨ Any evidence of indirect or direct methods of suicidal behavior
(“practicing,” storing or “hording medications,” suspicious signs of
“cutting” on self or evidence of self-injurious behavior, etc.)
Possible Interventions With Someone Exhibiting Early Warning Signs
¨ Offer to talk to and be with the person. Listen and don’t feel
responsible for being “the problem solver.” You don’t have to “fix
it.” You just have to be mindfully genuinely present. Many times
that in itself is a gift to the person who is hurting and can do
wonders for mitigating the circumstances.
¨ Ask the person if they are having thoughts of hurting themselves.
Many people are extremely anxious about asking this question, as
though voicing their concerns will “push the other person over the
edge.” Again, as long you are genuine in your intention and
respectful and caring in your approach, many times hearing the words
out loud from outside of themselves is a tremendous relief to the
troubled person.
¨ Show concern without trying to take control. Control might be
something you are used to having given your professional role and
responsibilities, but this is one situation where you do not “hold
the ace in the hole.”
¨ Involve significant others.
¨ Refer the individual to a mental health professional or crisis
intervention facility.
¨ Call 911.
¨ Involve the supervisor. Tell someone if you have any doubts. It’s
better to be safe than sorry.
Normal Reactions to Someone Exhibiting Suicidal Behavior or Intent
Different people have different reactions to the suicidal behavior
and suicide of another person, depending on their relationship with
that person and their own life circumstances. However, some normal
reactions to this kind of event can be expected.
Emotional
¨ Concern, surprise, disbelief
¨ Numbness, detachment
¨ Overwhelmed, lost, vulnerable
¨ Feeling abandoned, alienated, disenchanted, disillusioned
¨ Generalized anxiety
¨ Identifying with the person
¨ Helplessness, feeling like a failure
¨ Fear, guilt
¨ Anger, wanting to blame, irritability
¨ Uncertainty of feelings, confusion
¨ Spaced out, lost
Cognitive
¨ Self-doubt, replaying old conversations and thinking, “I should
have seen it coming”, or “What did I miss?” or “If only I had…”
¨ Preoccupation with the person and the situation; can’t stop
thinking about them.
¨ Taking on the characteristics and concerns of the suicidal person;
becoming over responsive or responsible for their feelings or
behavior.
¨ Increased or decreased awareness of the surroundings.
¨ Heightened or lowered alertness.
¨ Preoccupation with vulnerability or death.
¨ Poor concentration, flashbacks, distressing dreams.
¨ Memory problems, calculation difficulties, losing things.
¨ Difficulties with decision-making.
¨ Spiritual crisis; a questioning of religious or spiritual beliefs.
¨ Confusion, lowered attention span.
¨ Suicidal ideation without action or intent.
Behavioral
¨ Change in activity level, withdrawal, or clingy behavior.
¨ Less or more communicative than usual.
¨ Change in interactions with others, excessive gallows or morbid
humor.
¨ Increased or decreased food intake, increased smoking, increased
spending.
¨ Overly vigilant to environment.
¨ Increased alcohol intake without awareness of consequences or with
the intention of exacerbating circumstances.
¨ Avoidance behavior.
¨ Acting out, antisocial acts, angry outbursts
¨ Suspiciousness
Physical
¨ Nausea, upset stomach, diarrhea
¨ Muscle aches, feeling uncoordinated, shakes, tremors
¨ Fatigue, sleep disturbance
¨ Profuse sweating, chills, rapid heart rate
¨ Headaches, vision problems, dry mouth
¨ More frequent visits to the physician for nonspecific complaints
Grief and Bereavement Process Following A Completed Suicide or
Serious Attempt With Injury
· Denial- "This can't be happening!"
· Anger- "How could something like this happen!"
· Bargaining- "If only...!"
· Depression- "This is sad."
· Acceptance- "Sometimes bad things happen to good people."
· Not everyone goes through all the stages in order, or according to
a set time frame in which feelings will be resolved. Allow yourself,
or others, the time needed to work through it. When you’re ready to
move on, you’ll know.
Coping Strategies
1. Talk about thoughts and feelings with people you trust and feel
safe with. In fact, we recommend that you talk “until you’re blue in
the face.” In most cases, there is no such thing as talking too
much.
2. Connect with others. Don’t set yourself apart or convince
yourself that this is something you have to do on your own. Don’t
suffer alone.
3. Get rest but avoid boredom. Maintaining a normal activity level
with positive interests and distractions and resting when fatigued
is instrumental to healing healthily.
4. Eat well. This means eat foods that will replenish your life and
vitality and give you the energy you need to cope effective. Limit
your intake of “empty calories”, foods you know offer nothing
beneficial to you beyond satisfying a need to eat or do something
with your time and feelings. Limit caffeine, sugar, fat, salt.
5. Drink more fluids (water and fruit juices are best); eat complex
carbohydrates, low-fat and nonfat foods.
6. Avoid excessive alcohol or over dependence on over the counter
substances. If you are unable to sleep, or are experiencing
excessive behavioral or physical symptoms beyond a reasonable amount
of time see your family practitioner or alternative health care
provider. Err on the side of caution. Emotional experiences can
manifest in very real physical symptoms that may require
professional evaluation and intervention.
7. Should this event receive media attention, limit your direct
exposure and the direct exposure of those involved to the most
common forms of media, such as television, cable, newspapers and
radio, for at least the first few days.
If you or any first responder member of your work unit are asked to
report on the event through media interviews include someone from
your organization, such as press and media relations, to act as
support and run interference. Unsupported or overexposure to the
impact of a potentially relentless media, either directly or
indirectly, can retraumatize the individual unnecessarily. Use
caution. If this cannot be avoided then make certain those involved
receive follow-up support services.
8. Engaging in physical exertion, and exercise as soon as possible
after demobilization is extremely helpful. However, keep in mind
that the goal of working out is facilitating the body’s normal
process of elimination of potentially damaging stress chemicals.
Keep the work out to a level of moderate intensity.
9. Try to restore normality to your daily routine as soon as
possible and, when you are ready. Maintaining normal routines, no
matter how small have a “grounding effect” on most people, and will
help you reclaim a life you may feel has been shaken by the event.
However, also give yourself permission to change things up a little
when needed, such as letting go of task you might ordinarily do so
as to spend time with a supportive friend or family member.
10. Maintain working, if possible. The daily structure and routine
will help normalize the situation and provide a grounding element
that may be needed and welcome.
11. Allow yourself time to grieve and heal. There’s no time
schedule.
12. View your reactions as normal reactions to trauma. Let yourself
“off the hook.” Being a professional in emergency public safety does
not mean that you “should” not have feelings or that you should get
over them sooner and more readily then someone else. . In fact, all
to the contrary, it may mean that the successful resolution of your
feelings and reaction may be more complex because of your experience
and background. Give yourself the room to be human. It’s not a bad
thing. Honest.
13. Allow yourself the freedom to talk about your reactions to what
happened with non-judgmental listeners. Choose carefully, however. A
judgmental critical listener may reinforce your fear that it’s not
safe to express your true feelings. This is not a good thing and is
counterintuitive to the healing you will need.
14. Seek peer, clergy, or professional assistance as necessary.
While not everyone has experience with emergency public safety
professionals, there are many wonderful, supportive and competent
professionals who are more then willing and able to help you or our
colleagues. Use them; that’s what they are there for. If you have a
spiritual practice, even if long gone and neglected, this is the
time to resurrect it.
15. Don’t be afraid or embarrassed to draw comfort from any
resource or avenue potentially available to you, no matter how many
years it’s been since you’ve been to church, confession, the temple
or wherever.
16. Work on accepting that anyone in your situation would have
responded similarly. When it comes to someone who is close to you,
professional or personal, no one can be certain how he or she will
respond to a critical event until the moment is upon us. Again give
yourself room to be human. You are. Don’t become another statistic.
17. Be gentle with yourself. Move away from beating yourself up. No
one has a “crystal ball.” No matter what you think you knew or
didn’t know, no one has the ability to predict someone else’s
behavior with 100% accuracy. If someone tells you they do, they’re
wrong. If you think you do, you’re wrong. Give it up. Let this one
go. Resistance is futile. Holding on to it is only finding a way to
punish yourself further. You don’t need it.
18. Consider using this crisis as an opportunity for growth, healing
and positive change. Refocus your goals and energy on what is really
important to you. Hug your kids. Love your friends and family
members. Remember to be affectionate with your spouse or significant
other. Be kind to yourself.
19. Allow yourself to be cared for by others. Let them get close
enough to love you, or at least express caring feelings. Stoicism is
not always the best defense. Sometimes the best defense is no
defense. “The walls that keep you safe, also keep you isolated and
lonely.” This doesn’t mean give an open door policy to everyone in
your division, but if you’re too busy defending yourself against
potential intruders, you also sever any potential opportunities for
support. Be discreet and selective. Try giving yourself the
opportunity to be known by someone who truly cares for you. It can
help.
20. Attend and participate in a debriefing. If none is offered by
your department seek one out on your own. Remember to follow up with
additional contacts if one session feels inadequate. You may have to
ask for this or actively seek out services on your own. You may have
to be persistent. Do it. You are worth it.
21. Debriefings don't work for everyone. If you or someone else are
one of those for whom this is true, please keep the above mentioned
items in mind, even for you. Being honest with oneself about ones
needs and feelings is one of the hardest things we can ever do. Most
of us are not early as honest with ourselves as we think we are.
Make sure.
When to seek additional assistance or help:
¨ Persistent intense feelings of discomfort. Unusually intense
family conflicts that are out of the ordinary for your family or
relationships.
¨ Significant symptoms that persist longer than four to six weeks
(emotional, behavioral, physical). Unable to use traditional methods
for self-soothing.
¨ Persistent suicidal thoughts and/or suicidal planning.
¨ Feel as though you are losing control of your impulses or losing
conscious awareness of your behaviors or actions.
¨ Other self-destructive acting-out that is atypical for you or
intensified, (sexual, financial, aggressive, or substance).
¨ Extreme behavioral changes such as increased inhibition, social
isolation, cutting off of most normal contacts, behaviors or
friendships.
¨ Persistently checking in with yourself or others to see if you're
"normal."
Where To Seek Assistance
Licensed psychologist or other health care provider in your local
area. Employee Assistance Program or Peer Counseling Program
A peer who has been through a similar situation, and with whom you
feel comfortable. A mental health worker or counselor through your
health plan. Clergy member of your church, temple or other
organized religion or spiritual faith.
Special Notes
Supervisors A 13 Year Old Boy Named Jack Family Members, Partners,
Friends, Parents of EPSP A Young Couple Love An EPS Professional “Oh
Say Can You See, The Red Flags Flying Over Sergeant North
Organizations, Books, Articles, Websites and Other Resources
Supervisors
Being a good supervisor can be a tough job on any day of the week,
but it’s particularly challenging when navigating the proper
channels for managing certain types of emotionally laden situations
such as suicide.
No one expects you to “have eyes in the back of your head,” but
should you know first hand that a subordinate has had a family
member, child, spouse, friend, partner or loved one suicide in the
past, taking a few extra minutes to check in with him or her when he
or she is the first responder or first point of contact in a suicide
can go a long way towards preserving the quality of life for someone
and reducing the potential for stress related problems in the
future.
This is particularly important if the suicide victim is a child or
someone known to the individual, such as a partner or friend.
Many supervisors feel pressed for time in a schedule that is already
significantly overextended. Given their daily pressure cooker of
commitments many supervisors I’ve spoken to are reluctant to say
anything at all, either because of their own anxiety or discomfort
about the topic in general and their lack of available time, or
privacy issues when it comes to someone they know. They don’t want
to say the wrong thing so they don’t say anything at all. They
assume that if this individual needed something from the division,
or the supervisor, that he or she would say so.
First line of approach: Don’t make assumptions.
Showing genuine concern for the well being of an employee or
subordinate is worth its weight in gold. You don’t have to write a
speech or block out a massive chunk of time in your schedule. It can
be as simple as saying a few words, “I heard you were the first
responder on the suicide of that 13 year old last night. I just
wanted to check in with you to see how you’re doing,” and wait to
hear and listen to the answer.
You don’t have to fix anything. You don’t even have to comment on
what they say, just listen and then wish them well, let them know
you’re available and go on with your day. Most people are not going
to tell you the “whole story,” their life’s history and then how
they felt when they rolled out to the crime scene last night, but
they will appreciate your awareness of the potential impact it might
have had on them and they will remember this.
If you show someone genuine concern you communicate by your actions
and behavior that you value that person as a human being. This will
go a long way towards maintaining the morale of that person, and of
your division.
A 13 Year Old Boy Named Jack
One of the most significant calls I ever rolled out on was the
suicide by hanging of a 13 year old boy. His mother had died the
year before. That evening he had dinner with his father, brother and
friend, played a game of Nintendo, and then went up to his bedroom.
Minutes later his friend found him in his father’s bedroom. He had
taken several of his father’s neckties and hung himself from a hook
on the closet door. The family called 911 and both emergency medical
and police were dispatched on the call. The responding officers were
in the neighborhood at the time the call was broadcast and arrived
within minutes. The boy was still alive. The responding officers
joined in with the paramedics to assist in saving this young boys
life. Unfortunately they were unsuccessful and he coded on scene.
I was called out to respond to the division and I was there when the
4 officers returned from the hospital. You may wonder if requesting
that a psychologist respond to a division following a suicide is
standard operating procedure. It is not. In a city as large as Los
Angeles if I had to respond every time patrol responded to a
suicide, sadly, I might as well live at the division. There are far
too many for this type of direct response, but there were several
factors about this call that made it a particularly significant one.
First significant factor: the age of the victim. As I heard
repeatedly that night, from each officer, “What does a 13 year old
have going on in his life that’s so bad that he kills himself? I
didn’t think about things like suicide when I was 13! How could a
kid this young feel so hopeless?”
Second significant factor, four out of four officers had young
children in their lives and in their homes, (sons and daughters,
nieces and nephews). All four officers were experienced tenured
officers and yet this suicide rocked them back in their seats. They
openly cried during their individual debriefings as they talked
about their feelings. Why? Because when they arrived on scene the
boy was still alive and as they worked with paramedics to keep him
alive they were reminded of the children they had at home. They saw
their own sons and daughters in the face of this young boy, and they
witnessed their own anguish and grief in the eyes of his father. The
boy’s suicide was so unexpected, and ultimately unpreventable. The
officers were reminded that no one is invulnerable to unforeseen
events.
Third significant factor, one of the responding officers had a
teenage daughter who attempted suicide the year before. While his
daughter had been in treatment and was reportedly stable, witnessing
the death of this young boy brought up many of the feelings he had
when his own child had attempted suicide. He had been the one to
find her unconscious body. Fortunately, in his case, his daughter
survived. Yet, as any parent or person who has ever had a family
member attempt suicide knows, sometimes ones grasp on reality can be
fragile and fleeting. No parent ever expects their child to die
before them, especially in a suicide. If it happened once, could it
happen again?
As can almost be expected when working with emergency public safety
professionals, not one of the officers confided in the other about
their feelings, but they openly shared their feelings with me. The
Watch Commander, a female Sergeant with 18 years on the job, didn’t
wait for them to come to her. She knew the circumstances of the
death, made a reasonable prediction about the impact the death would
have on her officers, and knowing a little bit about the
circumstances concerning Officer “Smith’s” daughter made the
decision to call me in.
She didn’t have to do anything, if she didn’t want to, but she
decided to work proactively and preventatively. She took the extra
step. Later, she also checked in with her officers individually when
they returned on their next duty day. No big song and dance, no
standing on soapboxes for an oratory speech, no lengthy extended
appointment to discuss deep-seated psychological problems. Just a
few words said at the right time and at the right place, “Just
checking in with you. How’s it going?”
A simple act of genuine concern towards an individual can do so much
to preserve the integrity and safety of a professional relationship
and working environment. Ultimately, everyone benefits, including
the organization.
Family Members, Partners, Friends, Parents of EPSP
“Unless you’re one of us you can’t possibly understand what it’s like
to be one of us. The things we see and experience every day… how can
we even begin to explain them to you?”
A common explanation, and inarguably the truth: How does one assess
the severity of the circumstances surrounding the needs of the
person you love? With diligence, perseverance and patience. There is
a fine line, at times, between what you need to know and what you
want to know. Certainly there are some circumstances that your
partner (family member, friend, etc) in EPSP can not share with you
that are duty related, however, the feelings associated with their
experiences can always be shared. Are you ready to listen?
A Young Couple
The other month I was with a young couple, married for five years,
and an officer for six.
The officer was a first responder on a “jumper” (a suicide by
jumping off a 14 story building). It had been his first time
responding to a completed suicide in which the injuries were so
catastrophic. He was extremely upset but maintained throughout the
call.
Once the coroner had removed the body he’d returned to the division
to complete his paperwork on the incident, and called his wife. His
wife wanted to listen to him, but when he began to describe the
details of the injuries his wife stopped him. Later, she was angry
with him for telling her such terrible things. He stopped talking to
her about most things related to work.
Two years later, I saw them in marital counseling. In session with
me she complained that he never talked to her about anything
anymore. She felt disregarded and detached. He complained that he
never knew what was safe and what wasn’t safe to talk about. Rather
then upset her because he did love her, he simply “sucked it up” and
stopped talking.
“I didn’t feel comfortable talking in a group with my peers so I
didn’t. I tried to talk to my wife about it but she couldn’t listen.
I talked to a couple female co-workers about it but that only made
it worse, so I continued to repress my feelings. I had flashbacks
and nightmares on and off for almost two years. I told no one.”
Finding and seeing the body at the scene is the single strongest
predictor of grief severity. In Predictors and Correlates of Grief
and Suicide researcher Jay Callahan recommends that support groups
need to pay attention to the trauma of suicide as well as the grief
reactions, including helping people talk about and cope with
traumatic images.
Those of you who are emotionally involved with someone in emergency
public safety are in a tenuous position. Like the woman I just
described to you, you may not want to hear the gory details about
what your partner sees or listens to every day, but you don’t have
to hear the gory details to be emotionally present for someone you
care about. All you really have to do is be there and show up for
the experience. What you will then be privileged to listen to is
some very important information about someone you care deeply
about.
People working in emergency public safety are repeatedly exposed to
suicide and death. It is, unfortunately, a routine part of their
job. Some EPS professionals can become exceedingly proficient at
denying the presence of their own feelings, yet they are still
impacted by their experiences everyday. There is no hard and fast
rule as to when and what will tip the barrel and open the floodgates
for any one individual. Everyone is different and their tolerance
level, history and personal experiences will influence their
response and reactions to any single or series of events, but if Red
Flags are coming up on the horizon for you concerning the person you
love, don’t ignore them. The Red Flags are there for a reason.
You may also be inclined to believe that because your loved one is
not on the front line, he or she is a 911 dispatcher; you don’t have
to be concerned. Wrong. I know few dispatchers who do not feel they
are first on scene when responding to a call. In fact, the vast
majority of dispatchers I’ve worked with feel that as a First Point
of Contact they are as much on scene of an event as a First
Responder. Unfortunately dispatchers receive about half the
recognition or validation as First Responders do while experiencing
relatively equivalent levels of stress and trauma related to the
calls they handle. Ultimately it has an impact.
“I took a 911 call from a woman whose husband was having a difficult
time breathing. Easy enough, I thought, or maybe the word is
“routine.” We started going through E.M.D. and some prearrivals. The
call progressively got worse. The man stopped breathing and I
instructed the woman to do CPR. As she was performing CPR she was
relaying the fact that her husband had lung cancer. He didn’t make
it.
The rescue squad that arrived on scene relayed the information to me
later on. I wished I had never been told.
The Fire Chief was the first to arrive on scene. He found the
entryway, where the man had collapsed, completely covered in blood.
He said he had never in his entire career seen anything like it. He
slipped in the blood on the floor. The patient was covered in it.
The wife was covered from head to foot in blood, the walls, etc. I
think you get the picture. Basically, his lungs and most of his
blood were in the entryway or covering his wife.
I was very insistent with her that we do CPR and that she not stop
until the rescue squad arrived. I feel responsible for the last
moments she spent with her husband; the last memory she will have of
him, and the fact that she was left with all that blood and tissue
to clean up off of herself and her clothing.
This call never seems to go away.”
Love An EPS Professional?
Then Next Time You Sit Down To Talk, Remember The Nitty Gritty
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Take the time to ask.
Be willing to hear the answer.
Be open with your concerns.
Share your own feelings.
Let them know how much you value him or her.
Be available to talk about it again later.
Don’t judge.
Don’t criticize.
Don’t humiliate or induce guilt.
It’s not about you.
It isn’t personal.
If , after talking with him or her, you’re still not sure of what
you’ve heard, or you are unable to feel satisfied, calmed or
comfortable with the responses provided (be excruciatingly honest
with yourself here), take the next step. Talk to someone outside the
relationship, either to a trusted friend or family member, clergy or
to a professional, either alone or with your partner in tow. I call
it, “Getting a reality check.” Your partner may become angry or
irritated by your actions, but consider the alternative.
I have rolled out to far too many suicides of emergency public
safety professionals and in almost every case the individual gave
signs of his or her intent in the weeks preceding the suicide.
You may not want to hear it, you may not want to see it but if
you’re feeling it and seeing a behavioral and emotional change, it’s
there. Trust the feeling. It may not be as bad or as serious as you
are fearful of, but if you don’t ask; if you don’t look to see
what’s really going on you may not find out until it’s too late.
Like Mark Twain said, “Da-nile ain’t just a river in Egypt.”
“Oh Say Can You See, The Red Flags Flying Over Me.”
For those of you who want, or need, more.
You’re reading this section because you endorsed one or more of the
following sections on the List of 16: 5, 6, 11, 12 or 13 with Plane
Crash, Bombing or PDVF with Children, giving you an automatic Four
Red Flags. You may wonder why we are weighing these experiences so
heavily, particularly if you believe that you have come a long way
from those early experiences, perhaps occurring during childhood,
and now as an adult you’ve “put all that behind you and moved on.”
This may be true.
Other experiences may be more recent and are ones that may have
occurred to you as an adult or on the job. As an emergency public
safety professional it is hard not to have come into direct contact
with any number of extraordinary circumstances, some of which, if
you work for a large urban organization, become almost standard fare
to the EPS professional. Suicides, homicides, child abuse, and
domestic violence all come with the territory, and we almost become
“numb” to them. We handled them a hundred times before and we’ll
handle them a hundred times again before our career comes to a
close.
Then, there are some of you who were reluctant to endorse any items
because you already knew the list was far longer then you really
wanted to acknowledge. Like many good men and women I’ve met in my
practice, and in my life, when I ask you how long you’ve been
depressed, you answer, “I don’t know. Seems like I’ve always felt
this way.”
My intention in flagging these items is not to dispute the quality
of your mental health or the prowess by which you have healed and
moved on from painful experiences in your life. My intention is to
highlight that there are some experiences that occur in our lives
that undeniably change who we are as people, and because of those
experiences we will never look at the world the same again.
Like many things, this in itself does not have to be an obstacle to
living your life or doing your job, as long as you have an awareness
of what belongs to you and your history and feelings, and what
belongs to the other person and or situation. This is particularly
important when working and making decisions in your capacity as an
EPS professional.
Sergeant North
I met Sergeant North after he transferred to a new division of a
large metropolitan police department. Tall, strikingly handsome,
well respected and admired for his work as a professional Sgt. North
was said to be on the fast track to success and promotion on the
department. Yet, there was a side to Sgt North that few people saw,
on or off the job. His personal life was a shambles.
I met him after the dissolution of yet another relationship with a
beautiful woman whom he characterized as chaotic, destructive and
“high drama.” On several occasions the conflicts in his
relationships escalated to the point of violence, with injuries, and
on one occasion an outside agency was called to intervene.
It was with great hesitancy and shame Sgt. North admitted that he
was the repeated victim of domestic violence. He never fought back.
He was depressed and had been depressed for as long as he could
remember. The only period of time in his life that he could remember
feeling happy was his first year with the department, while in the
academy. Shortly after graduating and while still on his probation,
his troubles began with his first girlfriend. His personal life had
yet to turn around.
One of four children Sgt North left home at the age of 16 to move in
with friends and finish high school. His dream was to become a
police officer. His father was a physically abusive tyrant who was
both drug and alcohol addicted. His mother was a passive,
emotionally fragile woman who eventually broke under the strain of
the physical abuse she endured from his father.
Sgt North’s home as a child was frequently the scene of loud
dramatic fighting, and horrific and unpredictable violence. On more
than one occasion the police were called to respond to reports of
domestic violence that many times led to the arrest and
incarceration of his father, a former Viet Nam Veteran.
Sgt North left home as soon as he was old enough and at his first
legal opportunity. He went on to graduate high school and then
immediately applied to a law enforcement agency out of state. He was
accepted into the Police Academy. It was his dreams come true. After
graduating he went on to become a highly decorated police officer
and eventually promoted.
On the job he was a stellar performer. Off the job he was depressed,
disillusioned, often despondent and frequently suicidal. He was
resigned to live a life that he believed would never match up to
what he had once hoped for. He never told anyone on the job how he
actually felt and believed that it had no impact whatsoever on his
work performance.
“Why,” he asked, “do I always seem to end up with women who are hell
bent on destroying me? I do everything for them. I support them. I
give them anything they want. I never argue. I don’t drink. I don’t
smoke. I don’t cheat. I’m reasonably good looking. When they hit me
I never even fight back. I swore I’d never be like my father. But,
in the end nothing seems to matter. They still leave me, and they
blame me for the problems!”
How does an attractive bright police officer with all the ear
markings for success end up the depressed despondent victim of
domestic violence? As a law enforcement officer he’d successfully
responded to countless incidents of domestic violence and prided
himself on his ability to resolve issues without force. As a
supervisor and Sergeant he’d counseled numerous trainees and
probationers on marital and relationship issues, and had even become
a peer counselor to improve his skills. Yet, in his own personal
life he was unable to function.
Is this just one person out of a million? No, in fact the disparity
between home life and personal is far more common then you would
think. I have met countless good men and women who are consummate
professionals and yet, in their personal lives there are huge gaps.
On more then one occasion I a client, “Does your family background
and history have any impact on who you are as a professional or how
you do business?” In most instances the answer is a resounding,
“No.” Some will say, “It’s because of what I went through as a child
that I became a police officer,” or dispatcher, or EMT, but few will
admit that personal experiences they’ve had either on the job or off
have profoundly influenced them professionally.
Sgt North may want to believe that his family history, or his
history with women and failed relationships, does not impact how he
does business as a police officer and supervisor, but he would be
wrong.
No one lives in a vacuum. In his case he learned early on that his
“job,” so to speak, was about tolerating and enduring abusive
relationships. His threshold for tolerating dysfunctional behavior
was much higher then many of his colleagues.
In some cases this proved to be an advantage in that he was more
willing to hang in there with a problematic probationer who was
“higher maintenance” than other probationers because he believed
that in the end he or she could still make a great officer. However
in other cases for Sgt North, it was a potential liability. That
same ability to tolerate highly dysfunctional behavior also made him
vulnerable to not seeing certain types of warning signs or Red Flags
concerning particular types of probationers, or other officers.
Often times it was not until the problem behavior became so flagrant
that it was undeniable. He became forced by circumstances to
respond. This left him, at times, in a perilous position, and he did
not always make the best choice.
This same process played out in his personal life as well. Every
time he picked someone new he believed he was picking someone who
was nothing like the last woman he was involved with. Yet, each time
the relationship ultimately bore a striking similarity to the last
and with it all of the same resultant problems. In each case, it was
also not until the relationship became a high stakes high drama that
the women in his life were able to get his attention, but by then it
was usually too late.
He always seemed to be the last one to know, on each occasion, that
this would happen.
So, what does this mean in the final analysis?
It means that Sgt North has certain vulnerabilities that are derived
from his life experiences. In his case, starting with his childhood
that became further complicated by his experiences as an adult and
as a police officer. As long as Sgt North continues to live with a
certain amount of denial he will feed those vulnerabilities, and he
will probably continue to be surprised when the next woman he picks
turns out to be just like the last woman he picked, again.
For most of us who are relatively high functioning the work place is
usually the last place that is affected. The manifestation of his
vulnerability at work may not be as dramatic as it was with his past
lovers, but eventually it will manifest in his professional life. It
only takes one time to miss something important in public safety and
inadvertently place someone at risk.
Is there no hope for Sgt North? Of course there’s hope. There’s
always hope if you are willing to look with both eyes open.
Life is unavoidable. The good and the bad, everything about who you
are and what you have experienced has gone into who you are as an
adult, and as a professional. Even your experiences as a child, as
the caretaker of your woefully neglectful parent, have contributed
to the adult you grew up to be. It was all part of your path, and
whether you are consciously aware of this or not, it has contributed
to why you chose a helping profession to begin with.
As a psychologist I have to be aware of what belongs to me and what
belongs to other people. It’s my job. If I am unable to distinguish
the difference and I over identify with a client then I’m in trouble
and ultimately the therapy is in trouble. My job is to be aware of
where the lines are.
As a supervisor, training officer, Watch Commander, Shift
Supervisor, police officer, EMT, dispatcher, we are all inherently
tasked with knowing where the lines are. Few of us come from perfect
backgrounds or have lives that haven’t in some way been touched by
tragic or painful circumstances, but that does not in itself have to
become an obstacle to living our lives unless we choose it to be
that way. Sgt North didn’t intend on becoming a victim in his life.
He looked like anything but a victim on the surface, but many of his
choices have pulled him down that path. Until now, he has not wanted
to take responsibility for what is his life.
I didn’t have an idyllic childhood. I’ve had experiences that at
times have separated me from those of others, and I haven’t always
wanted to see the part I’ve played in creating the problems or
maintaining the dysfunctional behavior, but there came a point when
I decided I’d had enough.
As a psychologist I’ve believed it was also my professional
obligation to be willing to look at what is mine and to do the work
needed to become healthier. I have come to understand, accept and
take responsibility for what is my life. I’ve learned how to use
these experiences to inform me about what is really important to me
and what choices I need to make. I’m not always right. I still make
mistakes, but that’s OK. I’m human and as long as I’m willing to be
abundantly clear and painfully honest with myself, when I need to
be, and sometimes even when I don’t want to be, it works out. I have
a good life and I am able to do my job, and do it well.
I’ve come to accept that I cannot treat every person who comes to me
for help, no matter how much they may want me to, and that I may not
always be the best fit for every situation I am asked to handle. I
know now I don’t have to. My responsibility is knowing when to say
“No,” and when to refer out.
Everything about my life, my experiences in my family, my friends,
the way kids used to tease me in elementary school for being “too
tall and having curly hair,” the day my mother died, the year we
lost our house, the first time a boy ever kissed me, (His name was
Mike and we were standing in the stationhouse of the Long Island
Rail Road in Kings Park. I was in eighth grade. My mother drove up
just as his lips touched mine.), to my experiences as an adult, the
first suicide I ever witnessed, the first time my heart was broken,
the first moment I saw the lifeless body of the bank robber at my
feet at the scene of the North Hollywood Bank Robbery of 1997, all
of these experiences and feelings have gone into who I am and have
made me the adult, the person and the clinician that I am.
This is neither good nor bad. It’s just what it is, my life as I
know it, the same as yours is for you.
We all have Red Flags. The challenge is being honest with
ourselves. If you’re not the person for the situation, if you’re too
close to the person you’re concerned about, if your own feelings are
getting in the way and clouding your judgment, there’s no shame to
this as long as you are aware of your potential vulnerabilities or
Red Flags. With awareness we have choices. With denial we have only
reactions and sometimes the decisions are made for us. When that
happens, sometimes there’s no going back again.
Organizations, Books, Articles, Websites and Other Resources
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Clinical Psychiatry 2001; 62 Suppl 25: 56-64
Pharmacologic Interventions in Suicide Prevention, Tondo L, Ghiani
C, Albert M; Journal of Clinical Psychiatry 2001; 62 Suppl 25:
51-55
Childhood abuse, household dysfunction and risk of attempted suicide
throughout the life span: findings from Adverse Childhood
Experiences study, Dube SR, Anda RF, Felitti VS, Chapman DP,
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